5 years

And restless, sleepless nights still exist

The memories always began pleasantly

But often ends with welts of sadness

Why does it still feel this excruciating

Won’t she always be my mother

But part of my heart is now unfulfilled

It is where she once lived

SHE ONCE LIVED

How can that thought make me joyful and heartbroken simultaneously

Love remains in my heart but there’s no reciprocation

It’s a love you cannot get from another

I knew she was never mine forever

But dear God, our time was too short

Was it a lesson you aimed to teach me

If so, I have learned

Tomorrow may be a new beginning or a final ending

Momma, you’d want me to be ok in this world without you

And I am but living without you is also agony at times

5 years ago, is when you physically left but you’d left much sooner

I begged and prayed to keep you

Yet I prepared and knew I’d lose you

Now I just weep with no more words

Praying you hear me always

Miss and love you forever,
LitaPoo (the cherished name you called me from a little girl)

Photo Credit: Mom earned this award for her volunteer hours when I was in 8th grade. Great memories.